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My Life In A Nutshell: PART II

May. 4th, 2011

01:37 pm - don't freak out

So She asked if it was cool
and I said yeah
thinking it was

Now the more I think about it
I'm starting to not like the idea
but I have NO right to get upset
None.
Fuck.
Sharing is caring right????

=/

We were on speaking terms again
And will probably hang out.
I told her this
Hope she doesn't mind

May. 1st, 2011

11:50 am

 It's Not that I Like being alone...persay
I Just think it's in everyone's Best Interest

Apr. 29th, 2011

10:05 am - Don't Fall Asleep

 And ON ANOTHER horrible dream note I Dreamt I had a baby
Not a dream where I already had the baby 
NO
I Was givving birth and pooed all over myself and everything
It was fucking gross

09:45 am - And Whatever You Do...

 I dreamt that I was at some huge party/rave type thing 
Then next thing you know I being carried up these stairs
My vision is hazy and I know somethings not right then when I look up
I see Peter
SO
I try to get down and run but he slams my head into the wall 
And carries me back up stairs 
Scariest dream ever right?
Yeah Raped by Peter fucking gnar
Then when I I did finally escape he's hunting me down the entire time

Apr. 25th, 2011

01:36 pm - Feeling The Past Moving In Letting a New Day Begin

We Ended things on a much nicer note this time around
He text me asking if I hate him
We cleared the air
Text is so impersonal but at least it's ended on a better note than before

Apr. 24th, 2011

02:39 pm - Barbara Streisand

 POSING.

For Pictures...

WHAT A CONCEPT.
Think about it?
You see a picture of a good looking person and you think hey that's a nice picture...
That person POSED for that.

For a few seconds up to a few minutes

Someone thought "hey maybe if I sit here and look over there I'll look cute"

For you're approval probably.

What A Mind Fuck
People IS WEIRD

And Who the fuck is Barbara Streisand anyway?

One day there was a little jewish girl who decided
Hey you know what?
I'm gonna be FUCKING famous.
not just famous. FUCKING FAMOUS

Current Music: Music

02:17 pm - Who Is Who

Why Am I being forced to stay home?
I thought slavery ended years ago
Could I leave?
Yes, but I would get so much shit and be given a guilt trip
If I'm  not even interacting with my family then why am I Here?
Tell me please?
If Lisa's on FUCKING SECOND LIFE and Her bf is playing Resident Evil
WHY AM I HERE?
If My Mom and her bf took the baby to church for Easter Mass...
WHY AM I HERE?
If Sitting in my kitchen on my laptop ranting about how much I hate today
WHY AM I HERE?
Is the job of your family to make you miserable on you day off?
Don't you understand hat yes we may be related but MAYBE 
I want to spend this shithole joke of a holiday with the "family"
I've chosen for myself
Don't you understand that I prefer to left alone

01:57 pm - I Just Came To Say Hello

 You know you've made it when someone dedicates Slowhands to you..

But on the real none of that shit matters

I've been thinking and Jaime confirmed that...
I CAN'T Feel about people the way I used to
It's sad but true
Boys actually not people
I Can't feel the way I used to feel
Giddy Happy
Uncaring of what the rest of the world thought
Head over heels for people
What Happened to me?
I used to be able to be all about 1 person
Now people catch my eye they show me attention
then What do I do?
I Run Away
What's wrong with me?

and Now After losing Steve which I didn't think was a big deal at the time
I realize as fucked up as it was we had a good thing going

 
I Don't know if there's anyone out there who can handle me
I Don't know if there's anyone out there whom I want to handle me
 
I need a break to figure myself out, but then I get lonely so I'm fucked
What to do?
There are perfectly good people out there whom I'd be fine with
So Why can't i be? I'm an idiot.
Why can't I be ok with being domesticated?

I Used to be able to love at one point in my life
Mike Steve even my first one

Why can't I feel like that about people anymore?
I can't be completely depleted of feelings right?

Current Location: Home
Current Music: Martin Solveig-Hello

Apr. 23rd, 2011

07:58 pm - Writer's Block: Beep, Bop, Boop

What was the first video or computer game you ever played? Did you love it or hate it, and why?

Super Mario Bro's DUH!
Yes I Loved it and I Still do
Why?
Because it's awesome!

07:55 pm - Writer's Block: Beep, Bop, Boop

What was the first video or computer game you ever played? Did you love it or hate it, and why?

Super Mario Bros Duh!
I Loved that game Still do.
Why?
Because it's awesome!

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